alot of ppl has at some point of time asked me what i would want to be if i had a chance. and i replied "perhaps being a full-time musician playing in a symphonic orchestra and touring the world with nothing but just me and my instrument." This dream of mine originated when i was primary 2 and my very inspirational conductor then has contributed a very big part to my dream. Well obviously dreams are meant to be just a facade. And at this point i truly understand the meaning of how dreams should stay as it is and sometimes it's better not to realise it or even acknowledge it.
ok thats not the whole point. my point is i have come to realise how band has been or is such a big part of my life, even though i had refuse to accept it at some point in my life. im not sure if i had said it before but i really want to thank my mom for signing me up for band as an ECA(the then CCA where it was not complusory to have one, even more so for primary school kids) My pri sch band life was memorable. The most tears i had shed as well as the most lessons i had learnt was from then. My only regret is that i never had the chance to graduate from there and in the process lost many of my pri sch friends, some of whom i had never seen since 12 years old and yet i still do remember them when i see familiar names popping out.
i daresay my sec sch band life was the happiest of all but also the most pressurizing and unforgettable one. Honestly in my opinion, given my extremely low EQ level, i might have offended the most people in my sec sch days for some reasons that i know or might not know. And this is probably the one stage in my life that results in who i am now as a person. Nevertheless, i still love 'em all and my memories of NH remains deeply in my mind even thought i would want to erase some memories for good. And i believe anything that runs deep into the mind would remain there for good so there is no way i would be able to forget them.
JC band life was the most short-lived and yet is the only one which i would want to pledge long term loyalty to. The transition from sec sch to JC has been an arduous one and if not for the existence of the many different individuals in my JC band i would not hesitate to quit school for good since JC life proves to be much difficult as it seems.
And while i was processing many of my thoughts about band this entire week, i came upon all these videos that made me relive the band-ing moments. all of which gave me good reasons to use up a few pieces of tissue. As much as i try to suppress my emotions (as i always do), there will be some breaking point for me since im human too.
"The Winds of Poseidon"-SYF 2001
"Persis"-i rmb it vaguely as my very last piece played in sec sch
"October"-a very melodious piece once played in AC
i feel much better now with some therapeutic band music. something which i need rather badly at the moment.
