im back with a heavy heart. 2 days ago i was still pretty fine with my own self-consolation after looking at the 'NN' of the row under Business Ethics. Obviously my effort in building up a wall of self-denial immediately came crashing down after harsh reality sets in. Without any doubt, today has to be one of my most dejected days in months. I know i wasnt even close to state of dejection when i failed MAB the first time and even the terrible 'A' lvls didnt really stinged me that hard. While contemplating whether to file for an appeal, i kept on thinking on how that doomed paper went and yet there were no clear recollections whatsoever. It's funny how the appeal process could only be based on 3 circumstances, all of which i have no idea how to go about delivering my case. I would think that it would be a seemingly futile effort to appeal especially when i have to weave a big story on how i thought my writings are strongly justified by my adequate understanding of the module. And i know i suck badly at convincing people, so no point in appealing when people are going to scoff at my rebuttal. Perhaps i shouldnt have gone for the paper, given my swollen eye that left a permenant scar till now. Or perhaps i should have put in less effort in the projects so that will make me feel better if i failed. It is true that this is my worst semester and i shall make it the worst i've ever had. No more excuses. I hate myself for being stupid and not ethical enough.
